Recently I have realized something about my life. All of the difficult things that you go through can either make you or break you. The outcome is determined by your mindset and your perspective while enduring those things. I believe that after you have endured those things and you look back on them, you aren’t the same person that you were before. If these situations are handled appropriately, you come out the other side leveled up.
What I mean by leveling up is this… Your knowledge, wisdom, and experience levels increase. Your perspective changes. Hopefully, you are more empathetic to other people and their lives and situations. You become softer, more kind. You realize what matters and what doesn’t. You do things for people because it is the right thing to do and not because you want anything in return from it. You are just absolutely and completely different than you were before.
Besides dealing with difficulties in life, I believe you can level yourself up and broaden your horizons through seeking out knowledge, wisdom, information, and experience. It could be the open and unbridled conversation with a stranger. It could be following someone else’s life through videos, blogs, social media, or right next to you. Seeing things from multiple perspectives and through many different eyes can also change you. I do, however, feel as though there aren’t many seekers in the world.
The reason this has all been on my mind recently is that I have realized once and for all that I do not fit in. I never have. I’m almost completely certain I never will. From a young age I was exposed to and experienced things that made me question everything. I asked why. I was curious and inquisitive. That makes people uncomfortable and they tend to shy away from and reject those types of people because of their own self doubt, insecurities, fears, or issues. As I have gone through my life I have not stayed in my lane. I have not avoided bumping into the walls. I have not gone with the flow or done what I was told to do. This has set me apart from others my entire life. It has been a blessing and a curse.
I have experienced massive highs and lows and every level in between. My constant mission throughout this journey has been to improve and grow. I have always been a seeker, regardless of what state my world has been in. And now… As I look around at the people near me, I feel as though I do not fit in for a host of new reasons that were completely unforeseen. Because of my experiences in my life and my attitude towards it all, I have been leveled up immensely. It has been unpleasant and uncomfortable, but it has been worth it.
I understand how this may come off to you reading it. I had a conversation with someone recently that he thought that I just thought I was better than everybody. I do not feel that way at all and that is not the intent or purpose of me writing this. I have a desire to share with the world that growth, change, and evolution are possible and worthy of your efforts to achieve. It is, as I have said before, uncomfortable and slightly unpleasant at times. But it is worth it. I am neither better or worse than any other human. I am different. And I always have been and I always will be. But that is where your super powers are in life. Knowing that nobody has your life, your experiences, your vision, or your voice is what makes you so special. And what makes you great is using those things to help other people.
Here is where I have run into issues with other people and talking about things like this. People reject what they do not understand. I have found that one hundred percent of the time they do. Learning new things is uncomfortable and sometimes unpleasant. People do not like either of those things at all. Most people would like to stay in their blissful comfort zone of life. Never bouncing into the walls or questioning things. And the really scary part of it all is that a mind that is stretched cannot return to the previous state. Once you go down the path of seeking you will not return. I feel like people understand that on some level and understand that they should avoid it to avoid discomfort. I even had a conversation with someone recently about that very thing. They did not want to start walking down that path or drop into the rabbit hole for fear of where it might lead.
And I guess here is where I am now… My desire to express this and encourage others has lead to some conflicts. I cannot remain silent when other people tear other people down or say and do mean or hurtful things to others. I want to help people build their big buildings while I make mine bigger. I feel as though there are going to be friendships and relationships fall by the wayside as I pursue more levels in my life and my world around me. I’m uncertain as to whether this will be worth it or not, but I believe it will be. My goals going forward in life are big, vast, broad, and deep. I was people that think that way around me. I want people around me that encourage and lift other people up. I want people that think and talk about the deep stuff. The hard things… What matters. I don’t want small, closed minded humans around me that are only concerned with themselves.
The last thing I will say is this. I have always been ambitious. I have always felt like there is more to life and the world than what people had told or shown be before. I guess this blog is a call out for like-minded humans that want to go do things in their lives and the lives of others. I’m looking for you all. If you are looking for someone or something… Put it out into the universe. Put that energy out on the internet, into the people around you, and express it in all of your day to day relationships and interactions.